After a long while I finally finished the next piece of the Commander Shepard series. It was hard. I kept changing the pose and the colors. I thought about having her with a gun, but discarded the option since I didn't want it to look similar to Destory.
I wanted this piece to stand out from the others, so I changed the layout. Since the choice of refusal (firing at the catalyst) isn't quite "canon" and was added later on by BIOWARE, I felt the need to break out of the rules I've set for the series, using a style meant to portray the roughness of the choice. The refusal option is after all a "messy" one, the one that breaks out of the catalyst's game, the one that defies their so called fate. It's the only choice where there's no glint of hope. The one where you just 'hear' about the character's defeat though a message left behind by Liara. "We lost the war," it says, darkening the mood, but perhaps inspiring those that are bound to follow.
To further portray this , I also changed Shepard physically, giving her red hair instead of the usual dark hair. After all, the cannon Shepard is a redhead and, for me, this ending was the one that made the most sense (my most canon). The Shepard I've forged had been breaking the rules from the get go, creating her own path even and spilling blood to do it so. In fact, she had been marching through no man's land, charging down the road less taken, unafraid to face the vast ocean of unknown. So even if everyone ended up dying with this choice, it was inspiring. They went down fighting, choosing to meet their end in their own terms, giving "destiny" or "fate" the middle finger and just letting it be known that they weave their own damn lives. That even though the Catalyst tried to play the part of God, Shepard would never be content to bow down and give up choice.
This piece is meant to represent freedom through refusal. Freedom to live and, yes, to die as well, but in Shepard's terms. *BTW, the quote chosen comes out of Javik once again. The complete quote (when he's lecturing Shepard) is: "Only the foolish mourn the loss of innocence. It is inevitable. The galaxy has never rewarded the naive."
Splatter/Blood Brush Resources:
Commander Shepard -- Doubt[link]
Commander Shepard -- Resolution[link]
Commander Shepard --Synthesis[link]
Commander Shepard --Destroy[link]
Commander Shepard --Control
Commander Shepard --Peace[link]
Commander Shepard --RegretsCommander Shepard -- Refusal
The Shepard Files
--------------------------*the first link would be the fanfic, the second the image that goes with it
[ONE] Colonist [link] [link]
[TWO] Colonist/Sole Survivor [link] [link]
[SIX] Earthborn/War Hero