Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
×




Details

Submitted on
August 19, 2012
Image Size
10.3 MB
Resolution
3300×4724
Submitted with
Sta.sh
Link
Thumb
Embed

Stats

Views
11,209 (1 today)
Favourites
357 (who?)
Comments
84
Downloads
154
×
Commander Shepard Regrets by Gigi-FenixPhoenix Commander Shepard Regrets by Gigi-FenixPhoenix
So this is my fourth installment of the Shepard Series and second part to Commander Shepard --Destroy. If you had enough galactic readiness, your Shepard survived.

However, I think that Shepard might not come out the same. Just think about it. Shepard might have sacrificed the minority for the good of the majority, but their deaths are on your conscience. Legion's sacrifice was for nothing and so was all of what EDI learned.

So, while I was coloring this, I tried remembering a quote that would fit what Shepard might feel; this deep regret that I'm talking about followed by self-doubt. Then I remember a quote from the first game, right after Shepard mutinies against the Alliance in order to pursue Saren. She says: "I keep on trying to tell myself that we're doing the right thing. I don't believe me yet." I thought that quote fitted the image the most.

---------------------
Shepard Series
---------------------

[link] Commander Shepard -- Doubt
[link] Commander Shepard -- Resolution
[link] Commander Shepard --Synthesis
[link] Commander Shepard --Destroy
[link] Commander Shepard --Control
Commander Shepard --Peace
Commander Shepard --Regrets
[link] Commander Shepard -- Refusal

BONUS:
[link] Wallpaper

------
*In other news, this piece has been used as cover by :iconezri-krios: in her ShepxThane fic "Resolutions." Check out the first chapter here: [link]

--------------------------
The Shepard Files
--------------------------
*the first link would be the fanfic, the second the image that goes with it

[ONE] Colonist [link] [link]
[TWO] Colonist/Sole Survivor [link] [link]

[THREE] Spacer
[FOUR] Spacer/Ruthless

[FIVE] Earthborn
[SIX] Earthborn/War Hero
Add a Comment:
 
:iconxaprilyne:
xAprilyne Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This was what I was telling my brother the other day; if my Shepard went with the destroy ending and survived, she would never be able to live with the guilt. Edi and Legion are dead, and as far as she would be concerned, it'd be her fault (I'm going with Synthesis anyway. That ending makes the most sense to me). Funny thing is, I don't even consider her to be a full-on Paragon. :P
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2014
Yea, Synthesis seemed the scenario where the most people survive. What's interesting is that, as I understood, if you chose that ending, then nobody would remember Shepard. And yet, with the extended ending, even when you chose that, Edi and your team at the Normandy remember Shepard. So I think that's just a plot hole they left haha
Reply
:iconnightchildmoonchild:
nightchildmoonchild Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Wonderful work
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014
Thank you very much! :hug:
Reply
:icontengu1993:
Tengu1993 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014
I don't know if anyone will respond to this, Gigi-FenixPhoenix or anyone for that matter, but I'll just speak my mind. I see Mass Effect trilogy and games like it as a morality simulator. You can be as compassionate or as ruthless as possible. For me, I'm pretty much a paragon that sprinkles in renegade, sometimes for the humor, or because I hate a particular person. 

What I also like about Mass Effect is no two Commander Shepards are the same. We interpret our Commander Shepard the way we see him/her. It's like your philosophy and morals play out with each choice you make. 

I chose Destroy initially because it was the ultimate goal since the first game. I kept thinking about why I kept choosing it after I've seen all three possibilities. 

Control: I saw Control as insult to injury for the surviving families of the war. Regardless of the Reapers helping rebuild societies after, they were willing to commit galactic genocide just to produce another Reaper for their fleet. Whose to say Reaper God Shepard reinterpreted its thinking just like the Star Child's and the cycle restarts? 

Synthesis: My thought of this ending is similar to Control with the addition of genetic diversity. What makes us all unique is not just physically, but genetically. Even if Reapers can understand organics' intentions, I still see a recipe for disaster. That being said, I did like EDI's speech at the end. It got me a bit teary eyed. :cries 

Destroy: Obviously, this isn't a perfect ending, but I prefer this one over the other two. I interpreted it as a lesson of what happened if we stepped on everyone to help ourselves. Though it was a painful lesson to learn, it goes to show you that a galactic threat can bring everyone together and put aside differences. The biggest thing I didn't like about it was the Geth being destroyed. It makes patching up the Quarian/Geth make-up null and void. Even though Shepard may or may not be alive, the galaxy may end up being a better place (I am a bit of an optimist XD ).

I've seen the Leviathan DLC. I gotta tell ya those Leviathans are pretty arrogant. Anyways, what I'm getting at is we have our own ways to see the Mass Effect Universe. We may make decisions if put in Shepard's place, or choose the other extreme just to see what happens. Either way, it gets us thinking and that's a good thing. :) (Smile) 
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014
I agree with you. I think what was great about the game, was that each of us made it personal. My Shepard would most definitely be different from yours. This is probably still my favorite game series. Thank you for sharing! :D
Reply
:iconnoratcat:
Noratcat Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2013
I like this rendition of the Destroy ending. A lot of fans paint this as the perfect ending, peaches and cream with no faults or anything, but the idea of Shephard not coming out the same could make sense. Sure you saved the galaxy from the Reapers, but you sacrificed a race of sentient beings and a close companion. That and who is to say somewhere along the line, more synthetics would be made?
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2013
Thank you, I'm glad you liked it. I agree, I do not think Shepard would survive intact the destruction of the reapers. We got to see in ME3 how guilty and defeated she felt when the Asari homeworld got overrun. We can only imagine how ridden with guilt the destruction of the Geth would become. 
Reply
:iconnoratcat:
Noratcat Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2013
I just wonder if Destroy will be the canon ending or not?
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013
According to Bioware, there isn't a cannon ending. However, most people seem to regard it as such, since Destroy is the only one that gives Shepard a chance to live.
Reply
:iconnoratcat:
Noratcat Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2013
Really? Well that puts me at ease but it makes me wonder how they will handle the next Mass Effect game?
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
I think they'll just use the universe, but won't tie them up. They would be two independent stories. (Sort of like how Final Fantasy does it, I guess).
Reply
:iconnoratcat:
Noratcat Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
Or they could set it in a new galaxy. Like maybe years after the original trilogy, but enough time has passed that the Reapers won't be mentioned and by this time humanity has more or less advanced. A good way to keep it in canon with all three endings is to have humans look the same, but it could be explained that technology has advanced to the point that it can get rid of those green eyes and wiring seen in hte Synthesis ending.
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013
That's true, although they would have to include tons of new technology to keep it feeling realistic (they are already advanced in that department, so enough years later for the details of the reaper war to be fuzzy, would mean new toys.
Reply
(1 Reply)
:iconmassmanny:
massmanny Featured By Owner May 29, 2013
That seems like something Mordin would tell himself in mass effect 2
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013
That's true, I think so too now that you mention it! :)
Reply
:iconknight-watcher:
Knight-Watcher Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
All victories - all endings have a hint of Pyrrhic to them because someone always loses something in them - some more than others.

Even when synthesis shows a seemingly balanced resolution - it still gets underscored by the billions or more who are dead including Shepard and all the squad mates for fell by the way side on the journey to end this cyclic war.
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2013
Agreed. Which is why there's no perfect ending, and if there's a chance Shepard survives one... then he/she will never be the same.
Reply
:iconknight-watcher:
Knight-Watcher Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
All the endings sparked a global discussion on them and even that Indoctrination thread had some merit. The point is that it made people talk, think, feel, react, and go back to live it all again for no two stories are the same - perhaps it was never the endings - only the stories matter. Of course the soundtracks are always memorable even the third game's one that got a few additions due to the extended cut of the game.

Still I was moved to see so many races together flying in formation for Earth because well they could do no less for all that Shepard has done for them.
Reply
:icontreewyrm:
TreeWyrm Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2013
Just letting you know I just shared this on the Mass Effect Female Shepard page! :D I've included a link to "Regrets" in the caption as well. :)
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2013
Nice! I'll go check it out. Also thanks for letting me know about that other person posting the image without credit. I also asked her to post at least the link back to my page. Let us see if she does.
Reply
:icontreewyrm:
TreeWyrm Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013
It *does* really bug me when people do that. They think it's fine because they never ask the artist anyway and the artist should be grateful they share their work or some such crap. People often don't mean harm they're just, well, ignorant. It's good for the artist to say something to them though, nicely first, just so they know then that they can't claim after that it's OK. From that point on it's not because they have already discovered that at least one artist does actually have a problem with it and since the never even asked the others, they might be wise to consider that next time.
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013
Yeah, me too. I went and ask her to include at least a link to my page, but he/she hasn't responded or done as told. Worst thing is that I can do squat about it. Oh, well, hopefully she'll feel bad and consider adding links the next time x_x
Reply
:icontreewyrm:
TreeWyrm Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013
Technically you can report the photo, state that it is your work, and get it removed and get them issued a warning. If the link is in the comments though, they may not bother to update the caption I suppose. If there's no comment for it, give them the link. If they delete that, report them and drop me a link to the photo as well and I'll report them too.
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013
Thanks! I'll just do that (add the link in the comments). The problem when people don't include links is that if the image isn't big quality, the link I add won't be legible in the picture. I always include it small so I don't mess with the picture. It's good if you see it in decent size, but not legible if you don't. :(
Reply
:icondonobowk:
donobowk Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013
I feel my Helena Shepard would feel bad at this moment, not because she regretted what she did but because she wanted to die. War has been her life for so long and I don't think she'd deal well with peace but she had to destroy the reapers

I love all these btw
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013
Thank you very much. Indeed, this Shep I based on Jo Shepard (Colonist/Sole Survivor). I think that she wouldn't want to have survived either and so the guilt might make her retreat into herself. She would spend her last days in retirements, in an isolated place, with Garrus as her only company. She would sit outside and gaze at the star, not speaking, only watching and regretting. Not the most happy ending, but the most real to me, you know?
Reply
:icondonobowk:
donobowk Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013
Happy Ending's a kinda overrated anyway. Have a feeling Helana would end up doing that with Liara. That or just throwing herself into every dangerous situation possible.
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013
Agreed. There's always something very appealing about a broken character or tragic figure :)
Reply
:iconspyke1985:
Spyke1985 Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013  Student Digital Artist
The perfect score for this piece: The Last Man, by Clint Mansell: [link]
Seriously, when I first came to this, it was playing on Pandora, and the feels were perfect. :heart:
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013
That's an awesome piece! Thank you so much for sharing it with me! I've never heard it before, but it does have that nostalgic feeling to it. When I did this one, I was listening to the ME3 soundtrack (which has a lot of sad themes) and then I switch to the CD Illumina from Two Steps From Hell (that has a lot of songs with the violin, making it also very nostalgic). :hug:
Reply
:iconspyke1985:
Spyke1985 Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013  Student Digital Artist
If you think the score is awesome, you should check out the movie it was made for, it's fantastic. Takes a watch or two to really get what's going on, but once you get it, it's so tragically beautiful that it's hard not to love it.
Ahhh yes ME3 soundtrack is epic, I've written several chapters while listening to it. Hmmm I should check that out, sounds good :D
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2013
I'm definitely going to try to acquire that movie and watch it, especially because it has such beautiful music.
Reply
:iconspyke1985:
Spyke1985 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2013  Student Digital Artist
It's DEFINITELY worth the watch. It's beautiful and fascinating... wild and mindbending.... Really great movie, and excellent acting too. And yes, the score is gorgeous.
Reply
:iconn7kopper:
N7Kopper Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013
It's not about personal survival. It's not about finishing what you started. It's not about avoiding indoctrination. It's about freedom, for the living, and the dead, over a potential soulless despot, with no notion of the thought processes, desires, and needs of anyone other than itself, yet thinking itself noble, like the old Catalyst, or irrevocably altering the mind of everyone in the entire galaxy, leaving them incapable of even determining if they'd have wanted it or not after the fact.

If the geth view it as a betrayal, that's their opinion. The war on Rannoch was caused just as much by their selfishness in allying with the Reapers rather than sending Legion/Not Legion to get Shepard's help as it was quarian ignorance of the fact that geth aren't all Reaper-allied killbots. It is never right to kill other sapients - but in some cases, it's the lesser of multiple evils. Even typing this, I feel dirty - sacrificing oneself to save the lives of everyone else, heedless of the consequences is the easy route. Explicitly choosing to kill other people - LOTS of other people, and stay alive yourself... that is a truly tough decision, and a burden that only a true hero could carry, after the fact. Shepard (or at least, my Shepard) would not be overly scarred by this, though. Or anything. If the N7 Special Ops. are the elite badasses, and the Normandy crew the normal people, Shepard is larger than life, and ultimately can deal.
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013
Indeed, I think that if anyone could do it, it's Shepard. However, I do think my Shepard might be scarred not just by the last decision, but by the combination of decisions she's made. If you think about how many people she's lost (colonist/sole survivor) --not just in the course of the battle, but of her life-- and how many people she's had to sacrifice (especially destroying the Batarian home world to keep the reapers from coming through the relay), then she would have a major case of survivor's guilt once there's no danger looming (distracting her). Hence why I chose to represent her surviving but not devoid of plenty of regrets.
Reply
:iconn7kopper:
N7Kopper Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013
Shepard has thoughts and feelings. Some set in stone, some decided by the player.

I like the fact that my Commander Sheploo would be far less traumatised than your own [Insert Name Here] FemShep.
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013
Lol, what can I say? There's something very attractive about tragic/broken characters for me. Which is why my Shepard has the worst background (colonist + sole survivor). Considering that, it's no wonder she would harbor regrets in form of survivor's guilt (third time surviving something that nobody else could).
Reply
:iconn7kopper:
N7Kopper Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013
As in, I like it in terms of storytelling, not in terms of "lol male shep is stronger hurr hurr sexism"
Reply
:iconmtibbs-89:
MTibbs-89 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Student General Artist
This was both my favorite and least favorite of the 3 extended cut endings (I did not like any of the original endings because they left too many loose-ends dangling). Shepard, being shaped by the player, is sort of personalized by the player. Seeing her battered at the end hurts, and seeing her die is worse. I like this ending for the survivors, and for Shepard and Garrus (my favorite love interest when playing FemShep) being able to go on and retire as planned. I imagine the two adopting Krogan babies. But it feels empty, selfish, and rather like a betrayal of Legion at the same time. Fighting so hard for the Geth and bringing a peaceful end to their war with the Quarians was great, but pointless with this ending, and Joker, who seems to already have a hard time connecting with people, loses the one woman he's ever loved (that we know of). The Synthesis ending is almost as bittersweet. You lose the character you spent hours shaping and s/he leaves behind loved ones and, to the religious, the prospect of those survivors becoming immortal, as hinted to by Edi's monologue, one wonders if those who lost loved ones will ever be reunited? If one is immortal, one's soul cannot go to the next world. One is left longing for those who is lost. But it is happy because everyone who survived up to that point (except for Shepard) lives and rebuilds, and Legion's sacrifice is not for nothing. The control ending was a bit creepy to me, and felt lonely.

I can honestly say no game has touched me quite as deeply as the Mass Effect series, and never have I cried so much in a short span of time as I did when playing and completing Mass Effect 3. Maybe I just take them too seriously, I can admit to that, but it is still an awesome trilogy.
Reply
:iconspyke1985:
Spyke1985 Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I know you posted this a long time ago, but I agree with you 110%. This is EXACTLY how I feel about the whole thing. Very well put.
Reply
:iconmtibbs-89:
MTibbs-89 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2013  Student General Artist
I don't mind late responses. Thanks :)
Reply
:iconspyke1985:
Spyke1985 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Awesome. :D
No problem ^_^
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012
I understand what you mean. I think that the imperfection of the endings could also have been done (ideally) for the sake of making them feel real. There's no such thing as a perfect thing in real life and the same goes for the game. Just the fact that Shep was given flaws and moments of vulnerability shows this. Which is why I couldn't picture Shep surviving and not regretting her destroy decision. I think that she wouldn't have been able to maintain her personality after such a big decision had been placed on her shoulders. I think she might become gloomy, broken in a way, much like it happened with Garrus after his team was killed. I wanted to portray that sort of lifelessness to her with this picture. Then I used the quote to help identify what kind of feeling she was harboring at the moment. Not happiness for surviving, nor accomplishment for destroying the reapers, but regret for not being able to save everyone. Regret for wiping out first the Batarians and now Edi and the Geth.

Glad you liked the drawing and thanks for letting me know your thoughts :) :hug:
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2012
This wonderful art has been featured here: [link]
Reply
:icontreewyrm:
TreeWyrm Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
WOW!

Looks like you've done more than I thought you had from the first picture I saw! This is another awesome piece! Definitely need to work out a way to show what you're up to here with your pics and fanfics!

I'm gonna have to come back to these when I'm not on lunch! :)
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2012
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it! Been having a lot of fun with all of these! :)
Reply
:icontreewyrm:
TreeWyrm Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013
Just letting you know I just added this one to the album so that's two of your pictures I now have on Mass Effect Female Shepard's page. Link: [link]
Reply
:icongigi-fenixphoenix:
Gigi-FenixPhoenix Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013
Thank you so much! I'm half-way done with my Commander Shepard Refusal, but my freelance work has been keeping me busy :o
Reply
:icontreewyrm:
TreeWyrm Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013
PS THANK YOU! :D <3
Reply
Add a Comment: